Well humph.

I feel badly for even thinking twice about it, but Bear posted a quick update about what a great night he had, how beautiful it is, and what a great trip it's been, and all I did was get steamed about it.

Maybe it's because by comparison, the weekend off I have been SO looking forward to has been nothing but crap. Maybe it's because my friends were supposed to visit but didn't. Maybe it's because I was supposed to go to NYC with him this weekend, but he'd rather go do his own thing. Maybe it's because he's enjoying a place he knows and loves, somewhere I have ALWAYS wanted to go, but never have... Whatever the reason, my own stupid issues with reading that just brought my morning down much more.

Grumble grumble.

It only took 30 minutes...

Fifteen minutes of battling my hair with a straightener and fifteen minutes of masking my tired eyes, and I look presentable.

I woke up and sneaked a peek at the hair color this morning before I took Winnie out... it was horrendous. It's still kind of shoddy-- I don't know how I screwed it up, but some parts look like they got more dye than others, which has never happened before. It looked way worse pre-straightening. The curls were everywhere and it was just HUGE. So now it's straight and shiny and acceptable. It's got some red when the light hits it, especially toward the root, but it's a medium/dark brown that matches my eyebrows perfectly. (I love when dyes match my eyebrows, which have always been much darker than my natural hair color.)

The choice of eye makeup was a good one... I looked so damn tired. Well, I always do. I get up so late (6:30 most mornings, when I have to be at work for 7:00) that I don't have time, and run into work sans makeup. I look a fright, but what do I care while I'm there? People were shocked when I came in on the 3-11 shift with my hair and makeup all done. That kinda made me laugh. Anyway, nothing special, really, just nice to have some time to look decent in the morning.

And now... I am off to the mall. I -am- going to see this movie, dammit! I'm a girl on a mission. Normally, I don't feel like I could go to a movie solo, it'd be too depressing, but... I need to see this, and it's been a terrible waste of my free time so far, so this movie will cheer me up. (Or make me wish I had my own Edward, but... whatever.)

After that, I will rack up some sales at Victoria's Secret, because I finally have a credit card and I am slowly trying to get some credit experience. (Isn't it nice that I can buy myself underwear and think, "But this will get us one step closer to getting approved for our mortgage!" Yeah, I think so, too.) Really though, I am amazed at how well their bras fit. I've always been an in-between kinda size, and now, their B fits like a glove! It's PERFECT. I am thrilled. And since joining, I get coupons to use like today's $15 off.

I hate writing about stuff like this. It's so boring. (Sorry to anyone who reads this)

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Bear just called. He didn't even say much of anything, and I started to tear up. I should have just let it go to voicemail. I really didn't feel like talking. He asked if I had any special plans-- I think that's what got to me. I said I was going to my movie alone, and he said he hoped it was good and he'll go with me if I want to see it again, because he wants to see it. A nice gesture, but so not something I want to hear right now.

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double-you-tee-eff is wrong with me? I just HAD my week of emo... I don't need another one.

Fail fail fail!

Had a good chat with Shandra while at the mall. I hate being one of those idiots blabbering away on my cell phone in public, but hey, that's the first time I've done it, and you know what? It was nice to unload all that baggage. So...

I saw New Moon! I LOVED it! Still cheesy (to be expected) but much better than the first, and it felt like it went on forever (in a good way). That was the highlight of my weekend, so I wished it went on and on and on. I'm tempted to see it again later, just to smile. It's been a rotten couple days. [More on the movie later]

Kevin kept texting, saying he wanted to cuddle later, etc. I told him to please stop, because I was kinda down and those messages weren't helping. He got all upset and said something about staying out late, going to a party, and told me not to wait up. I explained again, I was just down and his messages weren't doing me any good. He went off about how it's the last nice weekend and how he wanted me in NYC with him but I didn't want to go...

I told him I backed out so he could see his FD stuff with people who enjoy that kind of thing. He claims he wanted me there, got all mad, and said he was done talking to me.

Really? What the hell? I told Cassy it's been a crap weekend and now she, Brett, & I are going out to Sammy's for dinner/drinks. It'll be nice to see them but wow, unbelievable. Grr.

the movie!

okay, so i am abandoning my capitalization rules because i am drunk while posting. (just went out with a couple friends and had 3 times what i need to be 'good,' so... yeah. spelling correctly is difficult enough, forget big and small letters!)

NEW MOON WAS GREAT!

twilight was an obviously low budget movie. i feel like you were painfully aware of it the whole time you were watching. this movie steered clear of the blue-washed scenes and the color and lighting and makeup was much better. the vampires were pale without looking blue and fake.

there was a lot of shirtlessness, to say the least. this is understandable though, because in the book, it mentioned the werewolves running around in shorts, so, okay. there was a shirtless edward scene which was pretty needless, but i'd like to ask--- did anyone notice how his chest looked? (and not in a good way?! his nipples were two distinctly different sizes. i figured the fangirls would cry over that and i laughed. his ratings probably dropped instantly. well, maybe not.)

really though-- they did a fantastic job doing CGI werewolves and the edward visions that bella has while she's being reckless were great, too. the movie was the perfect length. some parts were soap opera-y and some parts were action-packed, but it was a good mix. i think this one did a much better job of capturing the essence of the book than the first one did, but that's to be expected when the budget is much better.

i also liked the volturi, despite the fact that DAKOTA FANNING was cast as jane! I HATE DAKOTA FANNING!!!! an ex-boyfriend of mine loved this girl and we used to fight about this constantly. what can you possibly see in her that is endearing?! uggggh. that aside, i think they did a great job casting those people. almost exactly like i imagined them to be.

i really liked alice in this movie, though she's one of my favorite characters and i'm biased.

if i had the time, i'd go see this again tonight. i'll probably go again sometime this week-- whatever my day off is, because i want another $7 matinee. i hate paying $10 for a movie, i think it's outrageous. still, this was really good, if you ask me. much better than twilight, and much better than i expected it to be. (i'm not a big jacob fan, but you couldn't help but feel for him in this movie. really.)

all in all, i'm glad i went. i think this was the first movie i ever went to alone. i'd do it again, too.